HOW GREAT IS YOUR FAITH!
(NKJV)Matt. 15:22-28..."And behold, a woman of Canaan came from that region and cried out to Him, saying, 'Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David! My daughter is severely domon-possessed!'
But He answered her not a word. And His disciples came and urged Him, saying, 'Send her away, for she cries out after us.'
But He answered and said, 'I was not sent except to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.'
Then she came and worshipped Him, saying,'Lord, help me!'
But He answered and said 'It is not good to take the children's bread and throw it to the little dogs.'
And she said, 'Yes, Lord, yet even the little dogs eat the crumbs which fall from their master's table.'
Then Jesus answered and said to her, 'O woman, great is your faith! Let it be to you as you desire.' And her daughter was healed from that very hour."
What was so great about this woman's faith?
By the time my son, Jesse, was 11 yrs. old everything in our home was chaos. He went into uncontrollable rages and all I could do was hold him tightly with his arms in a straight jacket position until he stopped. The rages and screaming had been going on since he was a baby. He was hypersensitive to all that was around him. Now he was getting bigger and stronger, and harder for me to control I cried out to God year after year getting, what it seemed like to me, ignored.
We all come to a crossroad sooner or later in our faith. Is He God or isn't He? Do I believe in Him or don't I?
Finally we found out what was wrong with Jesse....we had a name...Tourette's Syndrome....but it gave us little help or hope. When I read Matt. 15:22-28 one day I felt the Lord was telling me this is the kind of faith I will need for Jesse.
I asked the Lord what was so great about this woman's faith? This is what I see in this story.
First of all she knew He was the promised Son of God, the Jewish Messiah. She knew He had the power alone to heal her daughter. She was sure of who He was.
Then, she was persistent, she didn't give up, because she knew who He was...He was her only hope.
She didn't give up when He ignored her. Nor did she give up when He denied her. Even when he humbled her, she did not give up. She knew she had no merit of her own, yet she believed in Him....in His mercy.
I believe Jesus intended to answer her all along, but was testing and purifying her faith. Sometimes, when the Lord withdraws from us or denies us our request for a time, it either makes us give up, or it purifies and intensifies our faith. We become all the more earnest, and we resolve all the more that He is our only God, our only answer. If I perish I perish! But I will continue to pray until He answers! This is true love, and true faith, I believe.
Matthew Henry's commentary says, "Faith can find encouragement even in that which is discouraging and get near to God by taking hold on that hand which is stretched out to push it away."
One night while laying in bed, sick with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, unable to do anything but lay in bed, things with Jesse getting to the unbearable point for our whole family, even dangerous, to where he was about to be placed in a children's home, I layed there and cried out to God. "God! If You don't heal Jesse, I don't think I can believe in You anymore!"
What happened next is very difficult for me to describe in Words. I felt His presence inside and outside holding me. I felt in my spirit the sense of the roots of His love and grace so deeply entwined throughout my entire being and every part of my heart held by Him. Suddenly I knew...it was never me holding on to Him, but He always ever holding on to me! I knew then, that I could never not believe in Him.
I wrote a song I'd like to share with you during this time:
NO MATTER WHAT I'LL PRAISE YOU
O God, I've been praying for so long
And I've been crying
I've been crying and crying for so long
But it seems as though You just don't care
Even though I pray and I pray
I need to hear You Lord,
And just know that Your there
It's been such a very long time
And I just know
That if You're really, really God up there
And You really care
That You'll answer my prayer
But no matter what I'll praise You,
I'll praise You even when I cry
I'll praise You even when I don't know why
I'll praise you when I just wanna die!
There's no one else but You Lord,
Only You are God, and I will praise You
All of my life.
So I'll just keep on coming and coming Lord
Don't turn me away
No I can't stop praying and praying oh, Lord
I know there's just no other way
And I just gotta pray and pray
Until You answer, Lord,
And everything is ok
It seems like a very long time
But where else can I go
When You alone, O Lord, have the words
Of eternal life
But no matter what I'll praise you.......
© copyright by Ginny Larsen 1990
Jesse gave his heart to the Lord, July 4 of this year. He still has a long road ahead, but has the start of his healing. He now reads the Word daily and prays seeking that relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ..the one who makes us whole. We are praying and helping him and have seen some good things the Lord has done in Jesse. Glory to the Lord!